Originally Posted by justtrying.
So because the value of physical beauty in general fades, the physical beauty of an older woman is not enough? (Where it would have been in your earlier youth? ... but then, neither is the younger woman's beauty enough? --- or is it that the emphasis on physical beauty certainly lowers, passing by most older women, but that there are still many younger women who can meet or exceed the lowered value and still do not need to compensate much elsewhere?).
I visited Marlene a few months ago since then she has been on holiday so have been unable to visit….
So i did a bit more digging - i searched his name on her phone and it pulled up a 'note', i briefly scroll through it and it was huge.. maybe 10 imessage worth of text. I got as far as "dear x, i need to get this off my chest" before being kicked out by the phone. Deleted notes are permanently deleted after 30 days so I assume whatever I saw was due to a glitch..
Yet all the pain I've tried to channel towards productive things. I don't think you're a bad person deep down, nor stained from some past issues (I really wanna make that point clear: you're still worthy and will never, ever be viewed unfavorably because of events frm childhood had zero control over; even the overthinker like me didn't see you in that light......